1. I survived wearing maternity jeans.
2. I managed to sleep 6hrs in one night.
3. I cried A LOT but managed to work through my emotions alone without making myself or someone else crazy ;) well for the most part haha
4. My hair is long enough to braid.
5. I started a journal.
6. I learned how to control my heartburn! Well as much as possible haha
7. Got a nice prego belly comment without crying and hugging the stranger!
8. Made a list of things to look for in preterm labor so I dont call the drs every other hour.
9. Found classes to prepare for little mans!
10. Made this list!!!
It's REALLY easy to feel down these days... Life is changing as I know it... The path I choose is no longer about me. The decisions I make don't only affect me. The good bad and evil in my life is also my sons. The people I choose to keep in my life or to let out of my life effects not only me but him. I'm willing to make sacrifices for him no matter how much they hurt or dont! I dont know whats a right way nor a wrong. I DO know we are lucky though. We have an amazing family that will always be a positive impact. We live in a safe clean community with family and friends that will also be a positive influence. I have Josh who has helped keep me level headed and outta the clouds. So meme and I aren't alone by any means but sometimes its easy to feel that way. Sometimes... Like tonight... there are four other people in my house but no one to talk to. No pitty party please ;) lol thats why i'm glad I have this blog and now my journal! Once its out and pondered its way easier for me to overcome. I have more important things to really worry about ha. But the point in this was to help me remember... The small victories are where I should put more of my focus! :) ya its hard... It never will be easy but it won't get easier thinking about how hard it is!! Anyways... I needed to get that out. Good night all! Love you! Go BSU!!
Love always,
Kristen and my lil meme
I love you Kristen ! When things are tough I turn to God He has all the answers. I love reading your comments and I am glad you can vent this way I love you and if you ever need to talk I am here as you know. have a wonderful weekened and be safe love ya always aunt cindy xoxoxo P.s can't wait to meet little man, and you are going to do great !!
ReplyDeleteKristen I understand a lot of how you feel. I went through that, but now I understand that even though it was hard and even given the chance to go back and redo it, there's no way I could live without my little man. He's my everything and he has been exactly what I've needed when I had nothing. I'm always here for you. I know I haven't been hardly a friend much at all, but If you want someone to vent to or complain to or even ask weird prego questions to i'm always here day or night. 208-409-0422
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