Madame Zaritska prediction

"The day you deliver, outside will be sunny. Your baby will arrive in the early morning. After a labor lasting approximately 16 hours, your child, a boy, will be born. Your baby will weigh about 15 pounds, 13 ounces, and will be 20-1/2 inches long. This child will have medium gray eyes and some blonde hair."

Really!? 15lbs 13oz!? Um I seriously hope not! But it is a boy...

UPDATE: He was 8lbs and 6oz but it was sunny outside and he was born early in the morning! Labor was 24 hours though and he had blue eyes and no hair.

I'm what I've overcome -Fireflight

I've got this passion

It's something I can't describe

It's so electric

It's like I've just come alive

I feel this freedom

Now that my past is erased

I feel the healing

I've found the meaning of grace

(I found grace)

If only you come see me yesterday

Who I used to be before the change

You'd see a broken heart

You'd see the battle scars

Funny how words can't explain

How good it feels to finally break the chains

I'm not what I have done

I'm what I've overcome

I know I'll stumble

I know I'll still face defeat

These second chances will define me

So I'm moving forward

I'm standing on my two feet

I've got momentum

I've got someone saving me

(got someone saving me)

If only you could see me yesterday

Who I used to be before the change

You'd see a broken heart

You'd see the battle scars

Funny how words can't explain

How good it finally feels to break the chains

I'm not what I have done

I'm what I've overcome

I make mistakes and I might fall

But I won't break

I've got someone saving me

If only you could see me yesterday

Who I used to be before the change

You'd see a broken heart

You'd see the battle scars

Funny how words can't explain

How good it feels to finally break the chains

I'm not what I have done

Oh the joys of being me...

I confuse myself often. I also contradict my own feelings. I change my mind sooooooo often that I'm not really sure what my own opinion is at times. When I have 'strong' feelings about something I usually can't put it into words or at time even feel like trying. And when I do feel like trying I usually just open my mouth and let it run. Usually it makes sense to me but you ask me to explain... Good luck getting a clear answer! I'm not sure I breathe enough and I feel I need to practice listening more! I really REALLY love hearing other people's stories! But sometimes they say something that gets my mind rolling and I talk outta line. Again... Probably should practice inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale...

*sigh* I'm not perfect this I know... infact I have excepted the fact that its impossible to be perfect but I never see that as an excuse to not try and be!

Recently... I do blame the baby hormones... I get angry easily. Usually I control it well by closing my eyes stepping back and put myself on the other side of the argument... These days uh uh! my new common slip up is telling someone to shut up or knock it off just cuz its bugging me... Then I feel bad because I didn't give them a chance or was a part of making their day bad... :( I use to vent ALL the time... Now I dont usually have someone for a sounding board... It just comes out in bits and pieces but never relieves me cuz I can't say it all!! Ya know...i dont like to sound like a whiner and I know complaining doesnt fix anything but it helps to work through it!! Boo I'm complaining again :/ haha my hands are going numb... Probably should get off. Lol my next post will be better.

My dog won't stop farting and its disgusting.

Once upon a time...

There lived a beautiful young girl... She loved life family and friends... She met a wonderful prince who became her best friend. They created so many wonderful memories and like all couples do the beautiful princess and the prince fought. They slowly began to discover that they loved each other but had two different ideas of how they wanted to be loved for forever. Beautifully forever is a long time! They knew they were happy together for the present time but also the future was inevitable so sadly had to part ways to try and discover their own beautiful forevers...

As time past the young girl tried to discover what she really wanted in forever. She tried forcing her happiness in places it did not want to stay. In activities that only brought temporarily happiness and friends who were never there to stay. She tried staying true to herself but only found anger. In this time she also discovered how lucky she was to have true loving friends and family. Which is where she began her new inevitable...

In beginning her new inevitable she met a new prince! This prince was handsome smart caring and by far the most respectful and captivating prince she had come to meet. In getting to know this new prince she learned so much about her own self, love, respect, honor and a true beautiful future she had never seen to be possible. Alas, as time passed she began to fall for this prince. This new falling brought fear to the young princesses heart. "Is this real? do I deserve this? What if I fall too hard and he does not choose me?!" Her fear grew stronger and more painful as time passed. The pain from her fear forced her to consult her father a wise, hard-working respectable man. Her father insisted that only time could tell whether this was her true forever and to not dwell on possible future losses but of the promise of the beautiful present time. She agreed with her father and chose to continue in her happiness with her prince in hopes for a beautiful future and without fear of losing. For with even losing her prince she felt extremely fortunate with what he has already taught her and with memories she may treasure for a lifetime...

As time passed more the young lady came to happily discover she was with child! Along with discovering this more fear and discomfort came because this was not the time she had hoped to start her family but also feelings excitement and relief for alas she could carry a child! She quickly informed her prince of such news. As life began to unfold inside her medicine woman informed her that this such time may in fact not be her time to carry. In utter fear of losing her new child she rushed to an emergency medicine caretaker where she learned in many wonderful ways it was indeed her time and that the child she was carrying was her former prince's half. She knew in her heart that former prince would be a wonderful father and that brought happiness to her great... But also sad feelings seeing how she could not have this moment solely to her current prince and her. For her current prince is a wonderful leader of love, respect, and honesty. Fear of losing her new amazing prince also put a cloud over her heart. "Am I worthy still though I carry another mans child? Could he ever love me now? Will he leave to find a princess without child!?" Many tears filled her eyes and fears of losing such a captivating gentlemen. As the dreadful evening came to a close she shared with her prince her hopes and fears of their reality. In exhaustion the young lady and prince said the respects and bid goodnight for decisions to be made another day. The night was long and filled with sparse winks and many tears. As she awoke the next morning she discovered she missed the calling of her captivating gentlemen the prince but he had left a message informing her that he was just that... A captivating prince who chose to stay by her side through the beautiful trials and tribulations of their new reality.

This young lady is still unsure how she is so lucky to have a beautiful new life growing inside of her... Along with such an amazing and supportive mother and father and dearest sisters who are always there for her. Friends and more family with unconditional love and support and now also a prince to lean on in times of peril and times of unbelievable happiness. She has decided to never take for granted the people in her life. She also understands that even though she hopes for a beautiful future full of happiness and beautiful memories with her prince that he may not chose her to be his forever. But she shall not fret nor fear of a day he might leave to find a different forever but to cherish her time he has currently granted her with.

The beautiful life inside of her has grown to be six months along as a healthy active baby boy! His mother and father and very excited with the idea that they will get to hold him in three months!

This story has been written in according to my current life as well as the past seven to eight months experience! Feel free to comment, text, call, or email me questions or comments but please for the sake of saving drama ;) keep everything off facebook! We all know and have experienced the drama of that! lol thanks again! Goodnight!